Hmmm..

Things are definitely getting better.

Especially driving. Considering
" 你 真 的 很 失 败“ and
" 你 的 错 误 没 得 救” and
" 你 的 自 己 的 脚 也 不 会 控 制“ and
" 按 clutch 你 也 不 懂 嘛！”

which I get, sandwiched in between scoldings and lectures for the first three lessons, I guess I can say I improved.

Yes, a far cry. Despite constant reassurance from friends that it's common to make mistakes, he never fails to make me feel like a total disgrace of the human race, incapable of parking in the second lesson, or differenciating the brake from the clutch, or when I was accelerating when taking a corner or attempting to crash into an Estima (Darn that neighbour). All he has to do is squint, shakes his head profusely and heaves his never ending sighs, and I would squirm my way home. And land myself in a deep depression.

Well now. that doesn't mean I have ceased being treated as a failure. Just much lesser.

Because guessed what pearls of advice I'd received today!

" 就 是 这 样 的 嘛！“
“ 轻 松 是 成 功 的 一 半！”
“ 学 东 西 要 快 一 点！” (which I take as constructive )

Haha. Puzzling enough, some incomprehensible emotions surged through me whilst the lecture went on as usual. He definitely resembles someone close..... my grandma!

Well, just the male version.


Ever naggy, impatient and loud, these elderlies (he's in his late fifties) can make my life miserable at times but somehow this kindles a snug, secure feeling. It's like he ticks me off alot, (by far the most besides my parents), mostly in a chided tone, but it feels like he's doing it for my own good. It's like .. he cares.


Especially when he says, " 作 么 你 傻 傻 的 ” It's feels so much like my grandma was beside me. And when he asked me, how I viewed my progress for today, I answered, smiling meekly, " 应 该 是 ok la".

And to my surprise, he chuckled and said, “ 做 人 要 有 信 心！”. Which warmed my heart. And was totally my grandma's reply whenever I say "Ah ma, I feel bad of myself. Papa says I'm fat".

Oh, just when he dropped me off, my grandma was standing outside of my house, and I was thinking,

"Oh my. Enough for today."


I wouldn't relate this particular thought to my family though, in fear of engendering a wistful atmosphere.








'Cause, at that fleet moment, I can't help but asking myself.







"Is this how it feels to have a grandpa?"




(Sara, please quit rolling on the floor laughing. I know, I know what I just said about him yesterday, Things just change, k?)