Today, it was my 7th driving lesson.
So I guess it was appropriate for him to shout at me when I forgot to signal and when I adjusted the clutch wrongly. It was thunderous.
Fury and fright really mounted in me. I was struggling to hold back those tears.
" 你 人 真 的 很 失 败 的！ 你 不 甘 愿 听 是 不 是？！”
I know it's my 7th lesson. But, I never, intent to disobey his intruction.
Sometimes, I'm in such panic that what he said didn't register instantly in my mind. I can't help it, you know? I wouldn't want to fail either.
Yes you are right. Mistakes shouldn't be done at this point of time. Your students usually would be stable drivers by now. I know and I understand.
But I beg to differ. I'm slow and not alert. That's me. I'm unlike your other students.
Can't he understand?
Throughout the lesson, he repeated profusely on what a failure I was and that I was going to fail my test. I didn't say a word, sometimes I gave him a small nod. Sometimes, I clenched my fist unvoluntarily.
But that moment he shouted, I can't help it. My chest felt tight and my eyes swelled, it was as if they no longer want to be concealed.
The minute I reached home, I let them all out. No, I should say, I intended to. My siblings were at home, and I don't really want to create a commotion.
"So, how was driving?" asked my brother in his jolliest mood.
"Oh. It's OK." I smiled.
And I hugged my baby sister, who just woke up.
Yeah. I know. That's why I'm here. To let them out.
I have another class tomorrow and the test will be on Monday.
Can I not go..
4 comments:
hey...its ur teacher who is a dumb dumb...not you...serious ler..where got ppl teach like dat de..so discouraging..pls dont let him affect u n HAVE FAITH IN URSELF
watz most important now is that you DONT LISTEN to him and actually belief that u cannot drive yea...especially during the exam..dun panic..just calm down..lang jeng...say "whatever la...i just do my best lo..who cares?"....and try to PROVE to him that u actually CAN DO IT
i bet if i were taught by him i would do much worse than u(honest)..even till now i do panic at times...rmb how many times i scratched my car..just within a year?hahaha
hey,no matter what, i assure u that driving isnt that hard and u are not dumb dumb
MEISHAN CAN DO IT :)
smile k?
i give u mua full support!
thanksss
i really hope so too. but sometimes it's my fault la, make mistakes. so everytime i'm wrong, will get scolding lor.
thanks anyway. ijust wanna be done with it.
I think you need to be more aggressive in your writings if you can't show your anger towards him. Just blog freely like nothing in this world can stop you and it might just do you good.
hahahah. wow. aggresive? as in..?
yeah i guess chanelling it here is healthier than not doing so at all
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