I don't want to deal with it anymore

Warning: Don't read.


Wei Han says I'm lazy, well I'll fill you in then, just a little. Don't ask.



Yesterday was the day

I cried the hardest ever this year, or in many years, if you'd like.

My vision blurred, I almost injured myself while cutting the vegetables.

My eyes were swollen and they hurt so much that

even when my brother came back, he noticed.

He didn't ask,

but he understood.



After all, he has gone through that before.

And I could tell, he didn't enjoy it, at all.

He was hurt before too.

He said, at a certain point of time in life, everyone would be, whether they like it or not.

I know he's right. But..



I thought I could control my tears, I thought all I needed to do was stay out of its way

And I did, successfully, at least in the past

for I always avoided it

But it had to be yesterday.

It had to be the day my brother came home late

but I knew I had to face it

I have to learn to survive.



I thought I could call Jian to talk about it

or contact people or write emails.

After all, I would, in normal circumstances.

But, I felt embarrassed.

Thankfully, I've recovered, after much help from brother.

But I'll never want to face it

ever again.

It's way too much for me to be handled.

The process is painful and the healing takes time.





































So, next time,

I'll just have to

leave it all to my brother to cut those stupid onions.


Bye.



ps: Yes, my life was that interesting.

pps: You were warned.